Sweet Sweet Destiny

Today i rear ended someone. While my head was still filled with Maybe's and what if's-I realized i didn't take any pictures of the damage. So i google search his address on my google app and head off. Parked across the street from his house waiting for him to come home, i realize i would make an excellent stalker...

Journals

In one of the beginning scenes of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (my favorITe movie) Joel (Jim Carey) is confused because he finds paper crumbs of ripped out pages in his journal. Well, in a few year from now i might be experiencing that same feeling. I found some entries from 06' tonight. Woa I'm happy that i got a blast from the past, but i'm even happier that i Woke Up.

I do believe keeping a journal is very special. Looking back at all those "problems" makes me realize that even what i'm going through right now will pass like gas. so let's not make a stink of it **wink.

s.s.

Today i saw this girl that was my ex-bff in high school. It was just for a second but sometimes that's all it takes for the memories. I was just happy to see her i guess. Even though she hurt me in the past, i would think of her occasionally.

When i look back on my life at relationships that could have been-i just feel how God is so in control of everything. I have frittered away a lot of time & energy in my life but, without him looking out i know it would have been way more. Sometimes i would question God, but months later when the fog would clear i would just say, 'oohhhh, that's why.' It's just amazing. Its not just in my life, but also in those around me. One of my aunts wanted to go with this guy and something just didn't feel right and God really did not allow it. And thank the good Lord cuz he's still figuring out his life...

Vegan-ry

I writing this today with an empty stomach. Today i just can't seem to keep anything down. In August i took part in a 'Daniel Fast' which for us is basically a vegan diet. We sacrifice something we love so much to show God our dedication and discipline (and there are many other reasons). Well, i did the fast for only two weeks and my body has not been the same since then. I have my good days and today is a bad day. I had cereal and fruit this morning and since now my stomach is empty i feel better. I just don't know whats happening to me. I understand i need to take it easy and not eat heavy foods but last week i had my first in-n-out burger and i was fine! Sunday i had Mexican bread and a very large glass of milk and i was fine.
Today i couldn't bare it and i called my boyfriend and we prayed together over the phone-then boom-i purged(if you will). This is just all so frustrating for me.

And to top it off food just isn't the same. All those things i crave so much don't give me the same satisfaction they once did. This fast really did show me that food is nothing and wee were called to live for so much more...

Keep this Coupon

@ 7:44 this morning i was already half way done cleaning out my car. I was looking for my spare key since my father, who was 1/32nd of a way to Baja, had my valet key (which is my main key) in his pocket. A perfect excuse to clean the Q-tips and rubber bands out of all the nooks and crannies. But every time i clean i'm reminded of how much of a pack rat i really am...

You know those 'KEEP this coupon' tickets? Well, i'm the lady who collects those.

When was the last time you cleaned out your car?