Contentment. It's a decision.

On Saturday i made it to my local church for service. And i missed worship and offering but i caught one song. anyhow, the preaching was really good. The speaker usually nos regaña, but he was hilarious, i was caught off guard. But it felt so good to just laugh. From the intro i knew the message was for me. food envy...

I try to sync my lunch hour with my co-worker Whitney cuz i l0ve her. And we always eat out cuz she doesn't like to pack lunch. So when we are ordering i have found that its best if i order what she orders cuz i often come down with the case of the 'food envy.' Its funny we laugh and then i eat half her food or we'll do the olde switcher-woo. Then he talked about the rumble most women have with their closets on Sunday morning...But the Deeper he got into the message the deeper i looked within myself. Its not to say i am envious of everything and everyone around me-no. But what i have really been struggling with is contentment.

Familiar statements:
o when im 21 i'll be happy. if i could just graduate from college. man, i want a boyfriend. i'll be happy after i have kids. I'll be happy after i get my own place. i just want to get a new job.

I believe its humanistic to want more-to want to succeed. There is no problem with that. The problem is the materialistic gimmick society makes us buy into. I find myself wanting more. I want more tops i want more bags. i want the iwant that apple hasn't even come up with. It's an issue. Take fore instance the fact that i really want a hybrid. i have thought about the possibility of trading in my vehicle. My perfectly good Honda accord V6. But then what? ill be up to my shoulders in Rates and interest and the %%% and the $$$. Its gonna creep up on my shoulders and choke me. Thats not easily brushed off.

There's nothing wrong with wanting nice things wanting that new car. Especially if you need it but what about the contentment. Don't covet and don't act with plastic instead of waiting for that blessing God has for you. Cuz you know God wants you to have that new car, that new phone and he has the sweetest deal laid out for you. You don't even need to sign in blood cuz he already has.

Exodus 20:17
Ecclesiastes 5:10; 12
Santiago 4:1
Philippians 4:11

the grass is green right here.

New Moon

For me 'new moon' is not the latest twilight movie.
A couple nights ago had a left behind dream. Yea I was left behind I saw the moon go out with a flinch like an old light bulb. It was so moving for me. I feel like this dream was a gift from God reminding me to be ready. Cuz in my dream when I saw that moon flicker out I couldn't believe it. Its coming. He IS coming.
Maybe your reading this and u think I'm crazy. I would rather be crazy than left behind cuz that feeling is defeat-its a feeling of Lost. Its a feeling of empty dis-pare.
Maybe your reading this and ur my friend, maybe ur wondering why I haven't warned u. Its not that I haven't thought about it. I just scared ill push u away with my 'craziness.' I love you. I'm not crazy there is a God that created us. We are screwing it up here. So he is coming to get those who are ready. Its that simple. O and you should really get baptized.
Sent from mi BlackBurry

SBPL: Borrowing from our Neighbors

Cutting fruit or Veggies from the other peoples property is not stealing for us. It is for Public access. We have no shame is walking up to any supplying source to pick what is rightfully ours. And if its hanging on my side of the fence-es mio, foo.

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Journals

In one of the beginning scenes of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (my favorITe movie) Joel (Jim Carey) is confused because he finds paper crumbs of ripped out pages in his journal. Well, in a few year from now i might be experiencing that same feeling. I found some entries from 06' tonight. Woa I'm happy that i got a blast from the past, but i'm even happier that i Woke Up.

I do believe keeping a journal is very special. Looking back at all those "problems" makes me realize that even what i'm going through right now will pass like gas. so let's not make a stink of it **wink.

omg R U serious

Stop PLZ this is too flippin cute! im such a Sucker for things with ears. Shoooot i want a hoodie with ears!
i'm like a Zombie -MUST BUY FOR MY UN-BORN CHILD -

s.s.

Today i saw this girl that was my ex-bff in high school. It was just for a second but sometimes that's all it takes for the memories. I was just happy to see her i guess. Even though she hurt me in the past, i would think of her occasionally.

When i look back on my life at relationships that could have been-i just feel how God is so in control of everything. I have frittered away a lot of time & energy in my life but, without him looking out i know it would have been way more. Sometimes i would question God, but months later when the fog would clear i would just say, 'oohhhh, that's why.' It's just amazing. Its not just in my life, but also in those around me. One of my aunts wanted to go with this guy and something just didn't feel right and God really did not allow it. And thank the good Lord cuz he's still figuring out his life...

Godiva Gems

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